For a very long time, I spent my energy in some fashion or another coveting things other people had. Be it a larger home, a nicer car, lavish vacations, and successful careers, you name it I wanted it. I tried desperately to fight against my emotions and will them to understand that things aren’t and will never be everything. Tragically the younger version of me struggled desperately to grasp the concept, leaving me depleted of joy and full of envy when ironically the goal should’ve been the very opposite.
As the years passed and I learned to be content with what I had, I was still tragically missing the point that there isn’t a material thing on this earth that could give me peace of mind until I found my happy in a place that was embedded deep inside of myself. A place that even living in my own body I had to dig deep and search for, the place that held the key to a sort of serenity that existed in lack and in excess.
The past few months I’ve been very intentional about the conversations and company I keep. One of my favorite sayings is “Timing is everything,” and while I didn’t make it up, I sure have adopted it as a rule of thumb when it comes to my personal growth. What doesn’t make sense or speak to me this week, may affect my future in a few weeks. Keeping my mind open to possibilities and new relationships has served me very well the first quarter of this year. I implore you in any season of life you find yourself in to get grounded, find some quiet time to meditate and focus on what is good and positive. Pray, repeat scriptures and affirmations that will ground you when you feel out of control. Step out of what you’ve always known and challenge those things that don’t make sense when it comes to finding your seat at the happy table. If it hasn’t been working all this time, be open to new things and ideals to get you there. Sometimes our thinking and practices of doing what mama ‘nem did may not be working and that’s fine, let’s figure out what is working. Get a therapist, exercise, do what you need to do for you.
Lawd knows I’m not perfect and I have a long way to go, and I was very vocal here about how tough the end of 2017 was for me. I came into 2018 knowing what I did last year wasn’t working and I needed to be about the business of getting my mind in a place to sustain constant positive personal growth and I’ve made great strides. In this case friends be like me and do the work to get to a happier place. I figure we all want things, but I’ve figured out they will never be enough until we find our happy, and I’m not talking about surface happy, I’m talking about a joy that isn’t dependent on the actions of anyone or anything. Just an ole nasty stubborn happy that can’t be broken.
I love sharing little bits of our family life in hopes that people don’t find the material things in them important but the love and laughter we insert into our home the true goal. Here’s to me being consistent in getting our weekend vlogs back up weekly! Here is our newest one.
I wish you all the success in making your Q2 dreams come true. If you haven’t planned out those goals yet get to it! How did Q1 treat you? Let’s chat!