Can You Be Lazy and Driven at the Same Time?

A few days ago I came across a post on Facebook called 17 Things That Happen When You’re Very Overdriven Yet Also Extremely Lazy At The Same Time   that handed me my whole entire 36 years of living in a little under 17 succinct bullet points. I mean, I was really thinking that Brianna, the author somehow knew me in a never met me kind of way.

I spent the better part of the last two weeks with the poorest attitude ever. Nothing new but the usual..you know what am I doing with my life etc… and then the whole Mercury retrograde thing I’m sure wasn’t helping the situation at all.  I’m sure my husband wanted to pack my things up and send me on my way……to the spa I hope.

One of the issues I was dealing with during those weeks was comparing myself to others and how they do things and why I couldn’t seem to complete things in the same manner. Yes, I know all about the comparison and thief of joy analogy thing…yet and still I found myself studying peoples behaviors and wondered why I couldn’t get my act together and color code my planner, and dust my floors and keep a spotless house.

Then this post was shared to my timeline as if the person that shared it knew that I needed to give myself a little break and be amused that someone knew that my quirks and idiosyncrasies were worth writing about, almost as if to tell other people that I’m not off or lazy but really driven and my behaviors are somewhat normal?

Here are a few that really hit my personality and behaviors nail on:

• You’re incredibly indecisive, and the things you’re usually choosing between are what’s best and what’s easy. You always find yourself caught between the more expensive item you really want, and the more affordable one you know it would be smarter to choose. Caught between wanting to work more and make your product perfect and knowing you need time to recoup and relax. It’s always a matter of what’s best vs. what’s easy, and it’s a war you’ll be fighting within yourself until you create your own middle ground.

• You’re either doing everything, or you’re doing nothing at all. There is no in-between. You’re working 14 hour days and meal prepping organic, vegan dishes for you and your coworkers and planning your latest lifestyle reinvention or you’re laying in bed watching Netflix not moving for a week. No matter what it is, you epitomize the “all or nothing” “A-Z” personality (for better and for horribly worse.)

• You’re either dressed to the nines or you haven’t changed your sweatpants in days. When you deem it appropriate, you know how to craft yourself into an avatar of stylish, fashionable, groomed, suave perfection; but the rest of the time? You wear leggings. And postpone any clothes with structure for as long as you can manage.

I think I’ve always known my train of thought and demeanor was a little different from others and I’ve always shied away from really explaining to people how my gears work and just tried to fit in but I’m at a point in my life where I just need to be me….unapologetically. Like seriously. I will do me, but for some reason always have the feeling that I need to explain myself to SOME people. When in actuality I owe no one an explanation on how and why I do the things that I do.

That article really tickled me and let me know that I’m good. I just march to my own drummer and I need anyone dealing with me to get with it or beat it. I’m getting there but in the meantime I got a good chuckle out of the fact that I think I am so complex when indeed I was broken down into under 20 bullet points written by a total internet stranger!

Mercury retrograde mess with any of y’all? Ever gone through a period where you felt the need to evaluate every aspect of your life? Are you driven and lazy at the same – – – – time?