Last night, I hung out with Trina and Niya (the animal print ladies) for an evening out to celebrate the two year anniversary of Cocktail Cupcakes. I know Brittany, the owner of the company through my bestie Niya. The event was at the W hotel downtown. Cupcakes, free drinks and catching up with the girls. Awesome evening. Here is our OMG booth shot!
So I’m in that space again. That space that has me pondering my purpose in life. I have written often about my desires to own my own business. To be more to my family than a wife and a mother. Yet, I still have failed to succeed at this.
I have so many good ideas, yet my execution skills leave a ton to be desired. I’m easily discouraged and my fear of failure leaves me standing still. I truly believe it is better to try something than to let fear keep you planted on safe terrain. Too bad some parts of me didn’t get the memo.
I don’t beat myself up about it. I am a true believer in timing is everything. Yet, these days my judgement is a little clouded over whether or not my time hasn’t come or if my fear is actually holding me back.
Holding me back from what I don’t know. I start things, I don’t finish them. It’s November and sadly I have completed none of the things I set out to do this year. Again, I’m not beating myself up I just want to get to the point of finding one thing that I am good at AND enjoy and putting my all into it. I wish I knew what it was.
Have you found your purpose? Are you pursuing it or are you like me, notorious for starting a million things with good intentions and following through with none of them.
You know me..right? What do you think I would be good at?!!!
New Mom in the Windy City hooked me up with the Kreative Blogger award. Before passing it on, I have to fill out the form and provide you with 7 random things about myself. Here we go.
7 Random Things:
1.) I am always thinking about something. My mind never stops.
2.) I attended Florida A&M University for undergrad and earned my MBA from Nova Southeastern University
3.) I don’t know what I want to be when I grow up.
4.) I will strike up a conversation with anybody. This is a trait that I have acquired within the past year
5.) I like to color…and no, not like the reference in “Sex in the City” but as in coloring book. Although that type of coloring isn’t bad either *giggles*
6.) My car is always a mess. ALWAYS
7.) My glass is always half full…sometimes
Now to tag:
I tell you one thing that really makes me angry is when I tell people that I don’t work and they come back with the saying…”Must be Nice” with a hint of sarcasm. See, the problem with this is people always look at outward appearances never considering the struggles one might have overcome to be in the place they are now.
Life has dealt everyone last one of us some blows. For some harsher than others but nonetheless we can uniformly agree that struggle escapes no one. In the past I have found myself feeling bad that for once in my life I’m in a good place. An excellent place. A place I thought I would never see as life seemed to beat my arse for what seemed like an eternity but was more like 3 years. Ailing mother, young child, MBA student, struggling marriage..all hats that I wore during this rough period in my life. I never thought things would get better. But they did, I just remember repeating to myself…trouble don’t last always, and holding on to an encouraging word told to me that said “God ALWAYS comes to see about His children… Trust me He does.
Sooo when people come to me with the “It must be nice” I respond, yes its nice to sleep on a pillowtop after sleeping on two twin mattresses pushed together on the floor for two years or, it’s nice to drive a reliable air conditioned car after driving a car that you had to bucket puddles of water out of when it rained or you had to constantly worry about making it home without breaking down on the side of the road with a small child. Nobody don’t see them struggles though.
Patience, faith and strength got me where I am now and I’m really thinking I don’t owe anybody any kind of explanation regarding where I am in life or how I got here. I paid my dues. So the next time I get a response of that type I think I am just going to say, yes it is. Its real niiiiiiiiiice here in my happy place.
Excuse my rant. *steps off soapbox* *drops mic* *curtsies* *blows kisses* *pageant waves* *skips and whistles* *throws deuces and says Peeeaaaaace in my Gina from Martin voice*
