Becoming a mother by far has been THEE most intimidating and daunting task in my life yet. When I had my son, I threw myself wholeheartedly into motherhood and quickly found myself in a bad space. Prior to having children I travelled, I shopped, I was an all around fun person. Wherever the party was, I was there. So to go from being an outgoing person to a home ridden young mother I was miserable.
I quickly found that it was not necessary to forego “me” to be a mom. With the birth of my daughter I was determined not to fall in that rut again. As hard as it has been I have been making an effort to make sure I get out as often as I can to enjoy some of the things that I did before I had children.
Recently, I have noticed that some people have thrown themselves into motherhood, to the point that every discussion they have or tweet or blog about is their children, breastfeeding, poop, etc. I have nothing against that, we all have our own purpose in life, but it has caused me to think that maybe I am selfish. I mean when I became a mother I knew that was a huge undertaking that would involve giving of myself unconditionally and maybe I am supposed to obsess about parenting and such…or maybe not.
I had a conversation with a good friend of mine and we discussed whether some mothers really enjoy motherhood as much as they proclaim. I am starting to think that some women are groomed to be mothers and they find worthiness in keeping house. But I have come to realize that won’t work for me. I’ve even beat myself up in the process but in the end, its settled… I must have balance. Even if its only a girls night out once a month or conversations regarding nail polish, the fall fashions or the latest song on the radio. I need those interactions. They complete me. They make me feel good.
I didn’t realize how much so until last week when I got together with a couple of women I totally adore and we had a nail polish party. We drank wine, ate cake pops and laughed. It felt good. This past weekend I joined a couple of friends for dinner at a new restaurant here in the city. Again, I felt alive.
My question to you…Is it really possible to love motherhood so much that you no longer care about or even try to do the things that once made you happy or is it all a facade? Do you think its really important to try to find that balance in your life…does it matter?
Yaaaassss!! Did you all like that disapperaing act that I have been pulling?
Did ya miss me? I missed you all. I have been crazy busy..I’m working on some things not to mention I have been taking photos and the editing still takes a bit of time for me to complete. I promise starting next week everything will go back to normal.
Lil Man is still in Las Vegas with my father. I miss him so much. He will be home next Thursday. I can’t wait.
Lil Mama…where do I start. Girls and boys are so different. At her age my son was so laid back and mellow. Her? She slapped a book out of my hand yesterday because she was mad. Really? She has started to self wean herself more and more. I doubt I even make much milk anymore and it makes me kinda sad 🙁
I went shopping. *cue clap track* I did it. I actually went and bought MYSELF a few things for the summer and managed to not buy anything for anyone else. I deserved it, I make no apologies. Although I still regret leaving those pleated shorts at Baby Gap. On my mission I ran across this fantastic line by the name of UK Style. It is a division of French Connection and its sold at Sears. Can you say uber cute for the low..low! I just happened to tweet about my finds and the company contacted me. I am currently working with them to do a giveaway on the blog so stay tuned.
Speaking of blog..I think I am finally over the whole what direction am I taking this blog in. It is.what it is. Its about me and my journey at becoming a better wife, mother, friend and all of the fun and foolery I encounter along the way. Not sure if there is a niche for that or not. If I decide I want to talk about something in particular every day, then I’ll start a new blog. So for NOW, this will remain the rants and raves of Mimi.
What have you been up to? I have been such a rude blogger and not stopping by your places..I’m a woman of my word, I will get by there…I don’t know when, so update me now!
Hope all is well.