I’m a realist…depending on the day. The gears that churn in my head are always moving. ALWAYS. So last week when I found myself stressed out I really took some time to see what I can do to prevent myself from going off on on these tangents from time to time. I eventually came to the conclusion that feeling overwhelmed is a natural part of life and these emotions come. The integral part in getting through these times is knowing that they are temporary and refusing to wallow in the depths of despair for day/months/years at a time. I give myself a max of 5 days and then I have to get up and do something. Too much to be thankful for.
While in my feelings, I came to the epiphany that alot of my anxiety comes from not wanting to be like my mother. Yes, that’s what I said. I love my mother, she was a wonderful mother and set many examples..some to be followed others not so much.
As parents we make decisions and teach our children based on our life experiences. We teach them what we know. As they grow into adulthood it is up to them to learn what in those lessons works and what doesn’t.
My mother had a hard time letting go of the past, and was known for starting and not finishing things. She left this earth with many of her dreams written in journals that I recently spent time reading. Nothing was exceptionally difficult, but she couldn’t let go of hiccups in her past and as a result she was never able to move forward.
It hit me. Sometimes the best things we learn from our parents is not to be like them, and there is nothing wrong with that. I am terrified that I will leave here like my mother did, never completing any of my dreams. I know this sounds crazy but it’s so true. As I watched my mother hold on to so many trivial things from her past I learned early on that I never wanted to be like that. I never wanted people to have that sort of control over me. While they’re sleeping on 198,523,936 thread count sheets, drooling and snoring I’m seething mad. NEVER.
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My children need to know that they can do anything they set their minds to. The pressure is on my husband and I to not only tell them this but to set a tangible example. They need to know all people won’t hurt them, and if someone does they must move on and categorize that person as such and not limit themselves by thinking everyone else is the same. I’m just thankful I havebeen able to conjure up the strength to move beyond what I was shown as a child and make my own way. I’m sure there will be many things that we will do wrong as parents but I pray that the children are able to see and rectify those things in their adult lives.
What did your parent(s) teach you that you vow to not pass on to your children? Are you there yet? Hard isn’t it.
I’m baaaaaacccckkkkkkk!!!!
I seriously just needed to take some time and slow down and organize things in my head and get them on paper. It worked!
The shoot went great. I still don’t have any of the photos back but when I do you know you will see them. Here is a behind the scenes shot I caught with my camera phone. Yes it was real official!!
My dad is fine. All of the major tests for stroke, diabetes and other things of the sort have been run and the results yielded nothing. Thank you for all of your kind words. I truly appreciate them.
My son..we still don’t know. I am thinking of home schooling but I know my limitations and at this time I’m just not sure if I can successfully do that.
So my weekend was low key. Hung out with the family and I did a little bit of shopping down at Tanger outlet in Locust Grove, which is not far from my house. I went with the intention to buy shoes and clothes for Lil Mama and ended up getting a few things for myself as well from Old Navy. They had 50% off clearance. Ummm yes! Paid $16 for a dress, skirt and three bottles of nail polish..as if I need anymore polish. I’ll do a vlog haul at the end of the week.
I’m linking up with Glamamom for Monday Mingle. I wore:
Shirt: Thrifted Belt: Target Clearance $3.98 Boot Socks: Marshalls
Boots: Sole Society
Close up of my belt…trying to up my camera on the tripod skills since the Mr. only gives me 5 shots to get it right when I really need 25
Yahhhhh!!!!!
Sunday. We laid low. I actually made some biscuits from scratch for breakfast. Yes.Me.
Mr. cooked dinner with his broke foot. I didn’t object, just put my feet up and did some blogging and tweeting. Weekend gets an A.
How was your weekend? Anything exciting in your world? Do share.
Hey guys!
Let me just say I thought about blacking out today but based on recent events it would be just my luck that I couldn’t get my site back!!! But please read up on SOPA and PIPA.
Well the past week has been a doozy..Let me run it down for you
My husband broke his foot. He needs my help..lots of it.
The printer did not get the shirts back on time. I had to pull some strings to get the shoot rescheduled with this awesome photographer and I am totally stressed out about that. All of the pieces just came together in the last 12 hours.
My Dad had to go in the hospital. Although he is out now they don’t know what is wrong with him
I had a conference with my son’s teacher and she said that he is scoring 4X above the standard scores of the tests he has been given..He needs to be in private school. How will we make that happen…God knows…but I’m still stressing. He needs to be challenged.
My car needs to be cleaned out. I just don’t feel like touching it.
I’m in a headspin about all of the money that I’ve spent getting this business off the ground, and now I’m starting to doubt myself…cry me a river
The laundry.
Just a few things going on in my world. I will be on Twitter and Facebook sporadically. I’ll be back on the blog Monday with deets and hopefully a few sneak peek shots of the shoot!
Thanks guys for reading and understanding.
*curls in fetal position, pulls covers over head*